Bailey Marie <3
December 2, 2010
8lbs 10oz
Originally I told my boss that I was going to take only 6 weeks for maternity leave. Then I changed it to 8 weeks. After my Little One (LO) was born, I got my doctor to write a note so I could have 4 more weeks. I couldn't bare to go back so soon and she was NOT sleeping. One month made a HUGE difference. But I've been back to work 2 days and I hate it. Here is something:
I posted this on the December 2010 Mommas Board on thebump.com: [DH=Dear Husband]
Hi my friends,
I don't know what the point of this post is going to be... I think I need some advice. My plan (before I delivered LO) was to go back to work during the day while DH watches the baby and then he would go to work at night and I would watch her. His boss said that wouldn't be a problem so he turned in his change of availability letter like he was supposed to at the end of my maternity leave (which was extended by 4 weeks so they had plenty of time) . Well they scheduled him to work Monday and Tuesday during the day anyway even though they knew our situation. He talked to them but they said they couldn't change it. OK so that was problem No. 1 with me working.
Problem No. 2: the bank turned us down for a house loan. We have excellent credit and could make the payments, but our debt to income ratio is no good - super high student loans + I make barely anything at my job. I thought we could get a foreclosed on home or a short sale. It's a buyers market right? Well that's not happening. So we're moving back into my parents' house. They have a suite with it's own bathroom that my poppa used to live in. We'll be paying them some rent, but not a lot at all.
So we can make it on DH's salary alone, but with nothing left over at all for savings or anything.
I went into work my first day back and told them I had to quit because of Problem No. 1 & 2. But they sat down with me to figure out that I could work part time and they would let me give them my availability each week based on DH's schedule. I agreed to this, but now I don't think I want to do it. I was hoping I could be more like a sub... where they could call me if they needed someone and I could either accept or decline...
Today was awful. I had to go into the infant room and be around all these babies that aren't mine and it made me miss my LO so much. Plus I have no experience with infants older than 3 months because that's how old mine is. And they were all sick with faces full of snot and drool. I could handle it if it was my little girl, but I had a really hard time with all these other kids. How do I tell the director that I never want to be in that room again? (My classroom was the School Age room with 5-8 year olds, and I was a Kindergarten teacher before that (my school closed))
Pumping isn't going well at all either. This is Problem #3 which I didn't tell them about. Hardly anything comes out when I pump and even though I do it three times a day - twice at work and once in the evening - I can't keep up with her. :(
I was looking forward to making a clean break and being DONE after my 2 weeks notice, but it looks like I'm going to be part time. I guess this is just a big complainy post. Thanks for reading if you made it this far. WWYD? Or do you have any advice for me? Thanks. <3
Oh also, both days when I walked in my door DH was standing right there with LO and she smiled so big as soon as she saw me. It was so heartbreaking.
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